� Stare me cold. � 2003-06-03 � 10:48 p.m. �
I have lived fully.... it feels that way. There are times when I am mostly woman that I am jaded by it... and I struggle hard in a day to forget what I already know... as if learning new will start me fresh...
It never does. It's only here I lay my confidence down for what it isn't. It's only here you really see me as weak... it's only here I can't get by with a smile... It's here... I release.
It's in people that I notice I deceive... and in their love that I stand high to disappoint them eventually...
Some nights I sit on the edge of the tub and cry... no one can understand the strain... the complexity behind a life that seems so simple... and when I trick people, I think I've done well... but have I?
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