� Colours... and thoughts that aren't really there � 2002-02-24 � 9:44 p.m. �
My head is all mahogany red... no really it is...
My thoughts are mixed... my stomach still turns...
Today would be my grandfather's birthday... I didn't know him well.. and I didn't know him long... for all of three years... I wish was less a child then.. I wish I could have known him better... but circumstance had he and my mother separated for over 30 years... circumstance is sad that way... a love gone bad with a child in the middle...only one memory of a man, a box of smarties and a lunch pale...
I wonder though... Mum was always tight with her brothers... and they knew him well their whole lives... how did he manage to avoid his daughter all that time? My grandmother, I suppose.
Circumstance is puzzling sometimes... but circumstance reamins all the same.
Work tomorrow... and I am glad... I hated leaving early on Friday... and no i am not completely recooped... but i am better... I mananged to eat some of a poutine... God, I really miss the tastes of home... what i wouldn't give for a poutine said properly. (It's Not Poo-teen, trust me... Pooteen has a taste all its own.) Poutine with the right curd cheddar cheese... the right fries... and the proper SAUCE, NOT GRAVY!
What i wouldn't give... I am feeling like I have a lot to say.... but for some reason my mind stops there...
I had a good laugh today in the car... just before getting out... a bad song on the radio reminded me of you...
So for you, Charlie...
"Oh my GOD I woke up with a SNAKE TATTOO!!!!!!!!!"
Imagine my voice screaming that at the top of my lungs... laughing til I could barely walk... up to the front door. Silence from there on up.
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