� I can see � 2006-09-28 � 10:12 p.m. �

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My emotions are nothing more then water spots on a window... fighting for first place as they fall...

I see my selfishness... I am always selfish... and as much as I think I give... I give in vain and vain only.

I'm a lousy friend... quite honestly. I think we are all at the root.

I'm a lousy lover... and a terrible wife... not much of a sister or sister-in-law these days either... I called Dad for his birthday on Tuesday... so I suppose I get a half a star for being daughterly... but I haven't sent his card or present yet, have I?

I feel inadequate... I feel pulled apart... I feel like my lungs are crawling up my throat just to sit on my tongue...

I feel overworked... I feel relieved... I feel afraid.

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