� faith � 2004-04-19 � 11:09 p.m. �
I don't understand my family. I suppose that's why when I was old enough to leave the nest... I jumped hard and I jumped fast... and seven years later I haven't been back to stay.
I don't understand people's need to alter themselves... drugs... drink... sure I have my own battles go misunderstood... but I am sorry if I get angry when I am told it's to "forget" or "feel good".
Fuck you.
I need to forget and feel good too... but unlike anyone else in my family, I have the balls to stand up and do that without substance... I have the balls not to blame myself on anyone else but ME!
Cam says he isn't going to smoke anymore... because he finally understands... do I believe him? No... But I'd really like to.
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