� A pocket full of rocks.... � 2005-12-03 � 8:31 p.m. �
It makes me wanna cry too.
I just feel you should have more than that... that for all the shit of the last five years, you DESERVE more.
I also know you're stronger than this... I know, mostly, where your heart is... I know of the things you want... we're not entirely different... and I would bet my bottom dollar that pretending - longterm - is not your thing. It isn't mine either.
You need the stars... and the moon and the sun... and all you have right now is a pocket full of rocks and a match... if you're ok with that, so am I... but there's a knot in my tummy that knows better.
I don't think he would be ok with it either... if he knew... and honestly, I'm not sure how he doesn't.
I hope you love yourself enough to empty that pocket of rocks... or turn them into gemstones... and I hope you believe in yourself enough to know you can do whatever you have to do... stand alone... or work harder...
I hope you know you don't need anyone to be the woman you want to be... she's there all the time... everyone knows that... and so do you.
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