A year 2005-06-30 9:58 p.m.


It's been a year, exactly so since T. was out... and a year since I've seen J...

For memory's sake I drank a bellini tonight.

I miss T. I miss J too, honestly, and the fact that I do bothers me the point I don't even want to think about it.

Davy's been right all along... haha... big surprise... J's just not worth it... not worth my missing... not really worth the effort I put in to staying in touch.

But I can't decide if he doesn't care... or if he doesn't know that he should.

More than I'll ever miss him though, I miss the idea of knowing he baby. He just doesn't know how I was built to love his kids.


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