� underated. � 2003-11-18 � 8:30 a.m. �
I am feeling wholly underated... fucked over... drained.
I can't win. Not in love nor life. I suppose I haven't exactly TRIED hard over the years, either... but I don't want something I have to constantly be at war for...
Not love... not life...
When has it not been that way for me? And better yet, when will it STOP being that way?
A man once told me we create our own luck... destiny if you will... and I somewhat see his point, but now, after knowing me for nearly eight years, he has probably changed his mind a little.
I have chosen to be neither here nor there when it comes to how this life rolls out... not a lover... not a fighter... since neither does me good.
And yet, living still kicks me square in the balls with all its might.
I am starting to get angry.
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