� chord � 2003-04-21 � 8:36 a.m. �

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I am tired of hearing how I fail... I'd like to hear how I don't, or perhaps by him how he does.

I am tired of being told I am not like "everybody else" as if that is a bad thing... who is everybody else? He's only had one relationship of any substance in his life... perhaps she still is everybody to him... she is the only one he has to stand me up beside.

I pondered worth all night.

I know that I love him... that I have a life here now... my home is here... and I am angry that no matter how loud I yell or how hard I cry he just doesn't hear what I am saying.

He's too busy thinking up his next word while I am trying to put this away.

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