Vividly

� derailed � 2002-12-07 � 11:25 p.m. �

I have train running through my head.... and cement blocks for legs...

Little elves of pain are sawing at my spine again... like its a fir tree. It's not... so knock it off.

I have no will for anything today... not a will to grin or talk or welcome touch...

I have no spirit and know nothing but...

If I went home for the holidays today... comfort wouldn't let me come back.