� In angst I wait � 2002-06-06 � 9:02 a.m. �
My results should be in today....
The idea is I don't want my dr to call me... that means bad things all around...
but I have this gut feeling he will... so everytime the phone rings today I will be jumping out of my skin... diving to get it....
I am not ready to deal with whatever didn't seem right. Being pregnant isn't so bad... I guess... I gave it thought... you know, I am just not prepared.
An old friend always says I am hugely mature for my age.... maybe he's right, i just don't know if I am mature enough to nuture someone else's life...
The probability of that is nil.. in my opinion anyway... which means worse for me... I am not ready for that either...
But I can deal with whatever the wind blows in my face...
I always do.
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